don't you remember - adele

when will I see you again?
you left with no goodbye,
not a single word was said,
I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
and a wandering eyes, and heaviness in my head
but don't you remember?
don't you remember?
the reason you loved me before,
baby, please remember me once more

when was the last time you tought of me?
or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I when wrong,
the more I do, the less I know,

I know I have a fickle heart and a bitterness,
and a wandering eyes, and heaviness in my head
but don't you remember?
don't you remember?
the reason you loved me before,
baby, please remember me once more

I gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
and hoped that you'd find the missing piece,
to bring you back to me,

why don't you remember?
don't you remember?
the reason you loved me before,
baby, please remember you used to love me,
when will I see you again?

any other words

dear heart,

don`t be scare, don`t be so sad
one day u`ll find oneheart who will sincerely in love with you and make you as the only one heart in his, like you make him as the only one heart in you,
the only one who will fight for you and always there to hold you everytime you loose yourself,
just be brave to open yourself and believe that will not any stupid thing can seperate you two,
then be happy and be stronger for any mistake that have been made to you.

for sure, there is nothing such a badluck in God's creature,
and only the badguy can say that someone was a badluck for them,
so just be happy with what you are now because your smile much more adorable than your tears.

sincerely,
mind, body & soul.

Tentang Dia

tentang dia yang sekarang mungkin membuatku kecewa,
namun pernah membuat duniaku menjadi sangat menyenangkan
kali ini tidak ada kekecewaan lagi,
aku hanya akan mengenang yang terbaik dari dia.

sebenarnya sangat banyak hal baik tentang dia sampai membuatku bingung harus mulai darimana,
sebenarnya sangat banyak hal manis tentang dia sampai membuatku bertahan sejauh itu.

aku masih sangat ingat ketika kami menghabiskan dua tahun baru bersama dengan keceriaan dari kembang api sambil saling membagi harapan harapan kecil kami,
aahh sudah hampir tahun baru lagi, aku pasti akan merindukannya.

circle of life

I believe, life is moving as a circle,
a circle that consist of center, insider, circle line, and outsider,
and each of our is a circle line from our life, it's a path of our journey, a path to keep us stay in line,

the outsider, seem so familiar so does the meaning,
yes, there are some people that interact with us as a result due we moved our circle,
some people that having similarity with us, maybe attitude, hobbies, experience, job, religion, or anything,
sometimes they describe who we are, sometimes they build us, unconsciously, sometimes we need them to fulfill our social life, and sometimes we choose them because we meant something for them, and they meant something for us too,

the insider, ooh it's the most precious people we ever have,
they was exist before the circle line created,
they build us from inside as a border that we called family,
full of love, unconditionally take us as a part of their life,
a family where the home in it, a family that everybody have,

there is a special thing about the center,
sometimes we can feel it there, sometimes we can't,
like a magnet of a static dot, we pulled a special outsider to fill the hole as a center,
it shows us how or where we should moving, it shows our purpose in life,
it's pull us, push us, and holding us whatever we did,
it makes us strong just because we know it was there,
ready to catch us whenever we fall, keep us from moving like a pinball,
and we also can always stay around it,

for a while in my life, I think I had found my center, but I was wrong,
now I'm moving like a pinball again, with an empty center.

Tentang Dia

tentang dia lagi,
dia yang tidak ingin dilihat hanya dari pandanganku saja,
dia yang peduli untuk melakukan pembenaran diri,
pikirku, siapa yang peduli apa yang harus dibenarkan sekarang?

selama ini aku tidak pernah mencoba melakukan pembenaran diri atas cerita-ceritanya tentangku, lalu kenapa dia sangat peduli akan kebenaran dirinya?
aku tidak pernah memberikan sanggahan akan cerita-cerita tidak lengkap yang hanya diceritakan dari sisinya saja tentangku, lalu kenapa dia harus peduli agar aku menceritakan yang selengkapnya?
kalau memang ini untuk kebaikanku, lalu kenapa dia tidak mengatakan pembenaran itu langsung padaku?
hhhah, terlalu banyak pertanyaan dibenakku

masih banyak yang tidak dia tau tentang apa yang kulakukan dan apa yang tidak kulakukan,
yang apabila ku jawab satu persatu maka dia tidak akan mampu membantah lagi,
masih banyak yang tidak dia tau tentang apa yang kurasakan dan tidak kurasakan,
yang tidak sanggup aku utarakan,

mudah memang untuk memberikan pembenaran diri, apalagi untuk seorang cerdas seperti dia,
yang berpikir kalau perasaan dan pandangan seseorang bisa diatur sesuai kemauan dan permainannya,

play nice! kata yang selalu diucapkan olehnya,

"but if you keep thinking that he is the best to accompany yourlife, just be brave to say it, and take all of the risk without complain.."

Payphone - Maroon 5

PAYPHONE

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,

The people we used to be...

It's even harder to picture,

That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,

But is it too late to try?

And in our time that you wasted

All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,

You turned out the lights

Now I'm paralyzed,

Still stuck in that time,

When we called it love,

But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home

All of my change I spent on you

Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong

Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,

I would still be holding you like this

All those fairy tales are full of shit

One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow

'Cause you forgot yesterday.

I gave you my love to borrow,

But you just gave it away.

You can't expect me to be fine,

I don't expect you to care

I know I've said it before,

But all of our bridges burned down

The Scientist - Coldplay

THE SCIENTIST

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles, coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start.

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Don't speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start

Tentang Dia

tentang dia, yang hanya bisa kuceritakan pada kertas melalui pena,
tentang dia yang pernah menjadi alasan senyum dan tangisku,
tentang dia yang pernah sangat berarti lalu pergi.

dia tidak tau aku begitu rela membatasi pergaulan dan aktifitasku hanya untuk menjaga perasaannya demi sesuatu yang aku sebut komitmen,
namun baginya, komitmenku mengekangnya dan tidak sepenting itu untuk menjaga perasaanku,
yasudahlah, dia hanya tidak tau artinya ketulusan dan loyalitas.

dia tidak ingat bagaimana cemburunya dia saat seseorang dari masa laluku mencoba menghubungiku hingga untuk membuatnya tenang aku menutup semua aksesku untuk masa lalu,
namun dengan mudahnya dia selalu mengambil kesempatan untuk berhubungan dengan masa lalunya, tidak satu atau dua, tapi hampir semua masa lalu - masa lalunya itu, bahkan dia mampu berkata-kata manis sembari sesekali memperolokku bersama masa lalu - masa lalunya itu,
yasudahlah, dia hanya tidak tau arti kesetiaan dan kepercayaan.

Berakhir Disini

aku tidak ingin diam lagi
tidak untuk kali ini
ada jeritan yang ingin aku ledakkan
ada luka yang ingin aku sembuhkan

tahukah kamu aku mengerang?
tahukah kamu aku meradang?
mungkin aku sudah mati dalam rasa
mungkin juga mati dalam hening baka

aku tidak ingin berharap lagi
tidak akan memaksa lagi
meski begitu aku belum akan berpaling diri
tidak, hingga ragaku juga mati

jika akhirnya aku berpaling rasa
bukan karna aku menyerah diri
tapi karna aku sangat cinta
hingga kubiarkan cintaku mati berakhir disini